like honestly without my ex my life is going down hill. everyday i would train for practice i do still but now im lucky to get out of bed by 2 i just feel like idk like in a way im done with life for now with all the bull it gives you. like i loved her and she knows it but yet she continues to toy with me like im some doll. it hurts it does. like all the shit she did to me in the past....and now..idk anymore i really really just dont.